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"Peaceful" Saturday Brunch



          After about four months of making plans and checking schedules, I was finally able to meet up with one of my girlfriends for brunch.  Why does it take so long to see a friend who lives in the same city?  Are we so busy that we can't find 2 hours in four months to get together?! Today, I didn't wait for the stars to align, I just made it happen :)
          Ethan, my 5 year old son, is with his dad for the weekend but I can't sleep in because I wake up at 6am everyday. Every. Day.  Since I'm a great friend (I pride myself on this), I wait an hour before I pick up my phone to text my girlfriend, "Let's get breakfast!" *presses send and waits for response... 2 minutes pass... still waiting* Ok, I know it's early so I get up and start doing laundry.  Why not get my list of a thousand things to do around the house started? Two hours later, but somehow only one load of laundry done (I really need to remove my iPad from my bed), she texts me back *heavens sing* It's a date! ANd, not to mention, we agreed on a restaurant on the first try.  Maybe the stars did align.
          I needed this brunch with Apryl today. Have you ever gotten something and then couldn't figure out how you lived without it before?  That's what this brunch was for me.  Apryl and I talked for over an hour straight.  I'm sure I talked with food in my mouth and I'm positive she made me laugh so hard that a tiny piece of cheese from my grits flew from my mouth to her napkin 😳 Trying to catch up on four months requires nonstop talking and laughing.  I'm not quite sure how we talked about politics, work, quality of life, travel, sexuality, and the kitchen sink; but, we did it.  So yes, I needed this brunch... Let me get back to that.
          Recently, I was unhappy.  Not just for a moment, but daily.  Not unhappy and depressed.  Just lost my happy somehow.  I would find it throughout the day, but I couldn't quite hold on to it.  It got me thinking... "What makes me happy? What truly makes me happy? Is it my son or my family? My career? My spirituality? A good meal? Finding the perfect bra?"  Difficult question right? So I thought further... "If one of these things were taken away, would I still be happy? Am I happy within? Making myself happy and not needing anything external's help.  Is it even possible to always be happy or is happiness fleeting?"  I brought these thoughts to Apryl and asked for her opinion.
          Instead of quoting her, I'll paraphrase.  Happiness and sadness are emotions. Plain and simple.  We can experience both in a day, or even an hour. Trying to be happy 24/7 may become exhausting, could even be impossible.  Why not try finding peace? *heavens sing again* I felt the light turn on, felt the epiphany, felt my heart pump faster... Exactly.  "Yes Apryl. Yes."  
          I didn't lose my happy, but I did lose my peace.  I didn't have peace about some decisions I was making and it was causing my unhappiness.  Now, I've had peace before (feels wonderful by the way) and I feel myself getting back to it.  But I know it's a journey.  I feel it's close.  I decided to start this blog this morning before I went to breakfast and now I know it will become a part of that journey.  So please, join me on this journey as I find and hold on to my peace... and you yours.


          

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  1. Torrie MFebruary 25, 2017 at 5:52 PM

    I love it! What a great read!

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  2. UnknownFebruary 25, 2017 at 6:57 PM

    Awesome sis! Felt like I was reading a good book. Can't wait for the official book to drop!��

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    1. Natasha NicoleMay 15, 2017 at 7:18 AM

      Thank you! I plan to be done by my birthday *fingers crossed*

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  3. UnknownFebruary 26, 2017 at 7:55 AM

    Cheers to holding peace no matter what emotions may come!

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  4. UnknownMarch 1, 2017 at 9:58 AM

    I just love this blog! I've been struggling with maintaining my happy 24/7 but maybe the answer isn't about being happy 24/7 and more about finding peace!!!!! Thanks for sharing!

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    1. Natasha NicoleMay 15, 2017 at 7:19 AM

      Thank you so much! I appreciate you reading. We all deserve peace :)

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  5. Tina B.May 14, 2017 at 8:18 PM

    Great post! Thanks for sharing!

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  6. UnknownJune 30, 2017 at 10:56 AM

    Xoxo! Great read! Love you Tash!

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  7. UnknownJune 30, 2017 at 1:17 PM

    Excellent read. Peace is the answer to inner turmoil. I enjoyed your narritive alot. I wish you continued peace and blessings. And congratulations on this blog and your inevitable success as an author. Love you boo. Always and forever.

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  8. Sherri AnneJuly 1, 2017 at 5:15 PM

    Would love to read more

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    1. Natasha NicoleJuly 18, 2017 at 9:44 AM

      Thanks for reading! xoxo My goal is to post every Monday during the summer

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